Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Nobody understands


What did you treat me as ? The words you said & your actions broke my heart into tiny tiny pieces . You keep finding excuses for yourself to reprimand me , shame me infront of everybody . You just want someone to agree with you , you just want someone to take your side . Have you thought about my feeling ? Ask yourself , is the matter really so big that you have to criticise me so harshly . I might be wrong , but never as wrong as you . Im just a laughing stock . I can't even have moments when im sad , days when im not happy . I can't even be quiet , i have to be happy everyday & act like nothing is wrong is it ? Lithat then is respecting you ? Lithat then is your good girl ? This is the reason why i dont tell you anything ! You always assume things & you only say things in your position . All you know is that im a rebellious happy girl , who always disrespect you , do all kinds of things in school . That's all . You think you know me ? Think again . In my 15years of life , how much do you know about me ? You know how much i have been through ? NO . All i did for you is really nothing to you , cass best la okay . Dont say you are fair , dont say you are not bias la kay , deep inside your heart , you know the answer . You think it is so easy to be me , you think that i have a life i should be thankful for . You are damn fucking wrong .

Pls cut me some slack , give me a break .