@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

How can a day be so wrong .

Yesterday , lost the game . But we wont give up , B girls ACE !

Today , feel so misetable . Early in the morning feel like dying becso damn sleepy . Then after P.E. , Feel like the whole is going to fall on me , head pain like siao . During the C.S.I thingy , felt nauseous & giddy . Now i feel damn uncomfortable , how i wish there is no school tmr .

Why is it that whenever i need you , something always happen ?
Why is it that none of you catch my S.O.S signal ?
Why is it that im always alone .