@Veins Of Scarlet: Im not so happy actually .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Im not so happy actually .

HI.

Yes ! We're in for the ! Actually not so excited , a little disappointed . Worked so hard , end up everyb's chosen , @#!$%&*&%@#$!##@$#!@! . Lithat audition for what shit . Hmmm , shall be more appreciative . Afterall , the goal is reached , we're performing on Teachers' Day ! (Y) . We're adding moves , so do look out for us pepo !

Todaaye is a suckish day , as i think im fat again & i spent alot of money ! & my ears are almost deaf -.- YunTing kept telling us her ang come alr & she's not pregnant . I wonder if her mouth is ever tired , seriously , HAHA . During English lesson slept peacefully until a silly & lulu girl woke me up , zzzs . After recess , got back our mathe results . Eeee , not v.satisfied :( BUT , I freaking won ZhengYi ! Bwahahahaha , by 1mark , awesome ~ (Y) . Now left SCI & HIS's result haven take back . Argh , fingers cross .

Its so sad that whenever i go WM , i'll hope i'll bump into you . But i never will .
Its so sad that whenever i pass by your school , i'll hope that you'll get on the bus , but you're nowhere in sight . Its so sad that whenever i walk pass the canteen on CCA day , i'll hope that i will see you with your friends , but i never did . Its so sad that whenever i see your msn peek popping out from my screen , i'll hope that you'll talk to me , but i know that you will never . Its so sad that whatever i do , i'll think of you . & all our memories will start picturing in my head . I still rmb them so vividly .. No matter how hard i try to shake it off , no matter how much i struggle , its still thr . I just wanna get out of this effing hell .