@Veins Of Scarlet: What if .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, August 13, 2010

What if .

ARGH , IM SO TIRED ! Can you imagine for the past 1 week 3days i've been sleeping for less than 20hrs ! I only slept for like 1h30mins yesterday night . You know its funny sometimes , im freaking tired but i cant sleep , screw it ! I wanna sleep :(

Anyw , Science lesson was fun today pepo !. I didn't felt like sleeping , haha . I(L)MrGan lah ! He can imitate Spongebob & patrick ! HAHAH , so retarted . & as he was telling us about his NS memories , he rmbed those ahguas whom tried to flirt with him , he labeled them as " The Thing " , HAHAHA ! Becos " it " is not woman nor man , so he labeled " it " as The Thing , awesome . Got back my English Commontest results , 16.5/25 . Not what i wanted , but i've tried my best i guess . Anyw , yesterday's SCI CommonTest was tough like shit , got afew questions which are v.easy though .

After school , met up with Xavier at the Shelter with DES . YT & her boyf went home to change first . Stayed thr for like 1h plus then left alr . Sucha bore man . I enjoyed vandalizing the table though , keke . The table is decorated with my awesome toddlings . Regarding our dance , i think we will add a small " thing " into it . Keke , i hope it will work . Wish us luck people !

Feeling so terrible & im at a lost of words . You think you're the only trying right , pls . Get that selfish thinking outta your selfish head . I might be freaking wrong at this point of time , but i dont give a damn . If you feel so sick , fine . Dont do it .

I 就是 dontw , what the hell can you do ?