@Veins Of Scarlet: You know my name , not my story .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Sunday, November 7, 2010

You know my name , not my story .

Jealousy kills . I dont like to go out with them is becos of you , is not becos how i cant accept the fact that they are with us now . You always forget about me when they are around . You always try to please them & then neglect us . You always choose to do what they want & go to wherever they want to go . You say that he is unfair , you say that he is lying , you say that he is bias . But you aren't better . All the comparing & lying , when will it ever end . I want my freedom back . You are not ours anym . When you are with them , act cute through the phone only . I know , it will never be the same again . You have totally no idea how i feel . You have no idea how your wrong decisions affect us . Open your eyes & look , open your heart & feel .