@Veins Of Scarlet: True friends stab you in the front .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, November 6, 2010

True friends stab you in the front .

Yesterday went KBox with my 2sists , the one at Clementi , form 2 to 5pm . Rachel damn cute hor , those songs that she never even heard before , she said that those are her favourite songs , then while she was singing it , she add her own lyrics , tones & style in it . Waa , i at thr laugh like no tmr lithat . Then becos those lyrics are not simplied chinese , is those fan ti kind . She dk how to read , " ai ni hao nan " she sing until " an ni hao sian ". WTF ? Cass laugh until she fell off the sofa , (Y).
Rachel sang alot of Korean & Japanese songs , PRO . Sometimes i wonder how can she sing until so good without knowing what the hell the song is talking about ? :O
Today might be going cycling & watch movie . Wooo ~~. Now im kinda lazy , zzzs .

" i feel like you are my responsibilities, sth i cnt abondon, sth significant. yet i cnt bring myself to forgive you.. and even now i still remembered what you said. i'll just had to live with it. " Im speechless . Im sorry , i'll never do it again (: