Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, July 8, 2011

Disappointment .

Your sorry means nothing . Friend ? You have no rights to talk about friend . How did you do it , teach me some time . You knew i will mind , yet you just go ahead & do it anyways . Dont give me what crap say you dk la hor pls pls , if you dk i will mind , you wouldnt even hide it from me . Best ah , fun or not ? (: Occasionally , when jinkang tell me how sad he is , that means i must ask him out to talk to him also it it ? Pls la , I wouldnt even think about it pls -.- You know why ? BECOS I TREAT YOU AS MY CLOSE FRIEND . I CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS & MY OWN BOYF'S FEELING . The other time zhengyi posted " I like girls who smoke (Y) . " You rmb what you commented ornot ? Got the cheeks to say " Hinting me is it ? " WTF ? If i were to tell that to jinkang , how would you have felt ? But still , i kept quiet , BECOS I TRUSTED BOTH OF YOU . " Maximum only talk at facebook what , nvm one la . " , thts what i told myyself . But siao leh , go out togther without telling me somemore leh , so awesome (: Dont tell me aamnda got go or what shit la . If glenna , me & jinkang went out together without telling you , WOW , you would have gotten ballistic man ! Haha , dont give me one " I treat you as my bestf & you dont trust me , im so disapointed " tis kind of shit k . Becos of the fact that im your close friend , i know exactly what kind of person are you . & i have seen you flirt way too many times , I see alr also scared . You see how you treat cheryl , she also your good friend what . But see what you did ? Tell peishan another story , tell cheryl another story , tell zhengyi anthoer story . OH MAN ! SO CONFUSING ! Truth be told , you dont treat me as your close friend . We are just your schoolmate , not only we think so okay , everybody says so . & just for your info , i didn't really think that you were flirting with zhengyi . I was only sure when other ppl come telling me . Dont come questioning why i dont trust zhengyi , my own boyf . you go ask him what he did . You want to talk about disappointment ? you have no rights (: Your " great disappointement " , is nothing compared to mine . Thanks though , for reassuring me that nobody can be trusted . K thanks , enjoy ah . * wink . you know what , at this point of time , im still refraining myself not to scold any vulgarities at you , you know why ? BECOS I CARE ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS .
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