Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, June 13, 2011

Signed with love,


So many things left unsaid . So many things left undone . So many things left unsolved . Yes , im still lost in shock . But i am truly happy for you , not the sarcastic kind but really . Im really happy for you , very happy . Infact when i first received that text , i was more of happy than sad . Also , i am proud of you , that you thought it through . It must have been really tough for you , & surely you went through alot . So , i won't try to stop you nor will i try to make you stay . Becos i wouldn't want your effort to go down the drain . Now i feel the emptiness within me , instantaneously . Becos im so used to relying on you , so used to having you by my side , not just as a friend but as someone who is very important . Maybe too used to it , now i find it hard to cope . I always took the fact that you wouldn't leave me for granted but now i know what it feels like . Im not trying to say all this to change your mind , im just trying to tell you how i feel , without having to deal with your replies & questions . In the very first place , this was just a mistake . To be exact , my mistake . I shouldn't have made you suffer so much & i shouldn't have dragged it . I always knew that ending this means things will change . Honestly , i dontw things to change & that's really selfish . Now i know exactly what to do . I will try my best to help you forget , just like how you always try to make me happy . I promise . No matter what , i won't make the wrong choices & hurt you again . Sometimes i forget that there is someone i should prioritize over you & i ended up hurting ppl again . But now you woke me up . Since you are determined to move on , i should to . & that means putting more focus on him like i should . You will want that too right .

Thank you . Thank you for everything . Thank you being special in my life . I didn't want to tell you all this through text becos i hope to eliminate any chances that my decision would be effected . Im sorry , for everything & for putting you through this . Lastly , never turn back . Goodbye sayang .
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