@Veins Of Scarlet: Ppl ask me why is it so hard for me to trust ppl & i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Ppl ask me why is it so hard for me to trust ppl & i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise .

OMG , I TOOK ALOT OF PICTURES , now you know how bored am I ^^ Some looks retarded but keep your comments to yourself & you survive *winkwink*

Just when I think you've change for good , you go & prove me wrong just like i knew you would . When im out of second chances you just send me those texts & gave me that look , & automatically you are off the hook . I dont ever want to take you for granted . I dont ever want to forget what its like before you or how it would be without you . I dont ever want you to doubt the way i feel about you or how im trying to be strong & happy becos of you . But you hurt me anyway . Somedays , its okay . Somedays , its not so bad so i can handle the pain well . But somedays , its not okay . Its unbearable . Its frightening how bad it gets sometimes . Its okay if you are never here for me . Becos i hardly tell you anything , becos i tried to & it turns out that i felt worst & we even quarrelled becos you said " it is not always about me " . I read between the lines & i read it over & over again . Just pathetically 6words & it can make me feel like shit . I dont blame you though , guess i expected too much . Expectations are the root of disappointments . Honestly , i never thought it will come to this . & it just sucks , i just want it to stop . Yeah , i always bring up the past . Becos i will never forget the pain that i felt , the tears that i cried & the blood that i shed . Its just so intense & excruciating , I will never forget .