@Veins Of Scarlet: I am not always strong .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Sunday, October 3, 2010

I am not always strong .

Hey awesomes !

Waa , really super fed-up with facebook . Spelled the word " Awesome " wrongly , & then they dont let me change , wth !

Anyws , just finish tuitions ! OMG , no more chinese tuitions alr !(Y). Chinese exam was so difficult lah ! Siao ! Everybody is complaining about Paper 2 . Some cannot finish the paper in time . & i tell you , my compo sure suck like hell . Aww :(. English Paper1 was awesome !~~~ I memorized a composition & then just copy & paste into the compo . Did i blog about this before ? Hmm , whatever .

Omg , i think im gaining weight ! Im eating laxatives & yet im gaining weight ! What kind of logic is this -.-. 2days ago , Glenna & DES were so entertaining while we were studing in school . You know those aunties whom you see arguing at the market ? Uh-huh , they are life examples . Its only that they started hitting each other breasts . Im always the innocent one & yet im always dragged into the fight . Then after that , went WM to PEE , how nice is that . Blabla , then sat at KouFu . Saw Sam & HY , chat chat abit & then left :)