@Veins Of Scarlet: Subconsciously ,

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Subconsciously ,

WHATS UP PEPO ! Waa , aching everywhr now . Thighs , shoulder , neck , feet & my heart . We should really do some warm ups before practising man ! HMM ! OMG , tmr is auditionnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn , im super nervous lah . Sure cannot concentrate during SCI common test one . We will see MissAng immediately after the common test , not 4pm. GOSHGOSH ! Pray hard .

Anyw , im freaking tired today . Awww :( & i used the freaking kay ! I didn't use the EffEwwSeeKay word , hoho . Now im trying not to scold vulgarities , i shall replace them with Siao or argh . & no more pointing of middle finger . Shall be more lady like from now on , (Y). Yesterday slept for only 15mins , wth !@!$%#$%&^%*%*$%!
Its all his , its , their fault .

OMG , tmr's audition . AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !

Is it my fault this time ? Why must you always talk about things i dont wish to talk about at the wrong timing ? Why must you be so insensible at times when you shouldn't . Sometimes i do think of you . Sometimes .