@Veins Of Scarlet: The love that lies within

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Sunday, August 8, 2010

The love that lies within

Hello ! Watched " Salt " On friday night , 9:30pm show & lot 1 with family . Supposed to be a movie marathon , but no other movies available , so only watched 1movie . I will rate te movie 3.5/5 . Ass sial , the ending like kns lithat , whoever hates NewMoon's ending will hate Salt's ending . After the movie , nua around , the next day then went home . (Y)

Im having those scary nightmares again , :( THhis time i dreamt that i was kidnapped & raped . WTF , @#$%^&*&%#$@#! I ran from school all the way to causeway , siao right ? & thr were birds & fishes on the ground , -.- Maybe i should rmb to pray EVERY night .

Tuesday meeting the girls up for dance practice . Hardcore , morning until evenning .
Must really practise super hard alr , Glenna cannot attend the audition becos of the kiasu teacher , zzzs . So the other alternative is to take a video of us & submit . However we still have hope , if the audition timing is early , then she can make it . Argh , SO FUCKING STRESS .