@Veins Of Scarlet: Stress suppressed .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Stress suppressed .

HELLO PEPO ! HOHO , super relax now . Finally 放下我的心中大石.

1st: Misunderstanding with Emilia
2nd: The rehearsal .
3rd: Dhiri .
4th: If i can reach home safely .

HAHAH , the 4th one is kinda lame & hilarious . Now is 7month , then today saw alot of joss paper & all , got abit scared , somemore discuss with Glenna alot about " the thing " , not the ahguas MrGan is talking about hor hor hor !

Anyw , today was awesome \m/ . " Awesome " has become my favourite word now (Y) . I promise i've said the word awesome like more than 20times today , with the hand sign ----> \m/ . HAHHAAH , during the rehearsal & after school . Practiced in the dance studio since 2:45pm to 5:15pm . 5:30pm the rehearsal then start , waalau , ended at 6:50pm & reach home at 8pm . Everb did well for the rehearsal . Especially the dance groups , all sexy mamas ! HAHAHAH .

Otw home luckily got ZhengYi to accompany to talk on the phone . For the whole conversation , he kept praising me man , awesome \m/ . Becos im too forgiving :) He cannot take it , he suggests that i should be angry with him like for 1month . Fine , muahahahah !~

I dontw you but i need you . Im not emphasizing that i need you , im emphasizing that i dontw you . You become my daily necessities . I feel uneasy without you bothering me .

After knowing so much , i still love you so much . Love , sucha big word .