@Veins Of Scarlet: Only GOD can judge me , who the hell are you ?

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Only GOD can judge me , who the hell are you ?

HELLO PEPO ! Siao man , the dance audition is on 12August , next Thursday ! OMG lah , left exactly 1week to practise . Somemore only 3groups will be selected , zzzs . I think our group will be in , :) Glenna & I have a secret way , confirm can get in one . Yes , we must have confident & we must encourage each other . Who ever say that we wont make it shall perish in hell , (Y) .

Today is NOT a good day , argh . First day only so hardcore , #@$%^&%$#@!#$%^&* . Want to bang the wall alr , make me so lethargic the whole day lah . Today never stay back for dance practice . Lynn need do newsmaker , Glenna got chinese dance , DES need go somewhr with Dhiri & im super uncomfortable , hence the practice is cancelled .

Tmr got National Day celebration , oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah ! I only like the half day part , keke , (Y) .