@Veins Of Scarlet: Eff love .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, June 7, 2010

Eff love .

Today I dreamt about you again . You know the feeling of having to face the harsh reality by yourself isn't good , at all . In my dream , i was having so much fun , we talked . I know it sounds very silly && lame but its true , becos it happened .. in my dream . In my dream , i took alot of courage to walk to you && talk to you . Now i know that its just a dream , it is all wasted . When i woke up , my heart ached so much , i teared . It felt like we were still close but yet so far . I hate it . Im always trying to impress you , but you are oblivious to what im doing . How to cheerup ? Tell me .