Do you know how deep the damage has done to me ?! I couldn't believe my eyes , how can she change so much . She is now a complete bitch , she hurt me with her words . Wow . & the worst thing is , you laughed along with her . You really failed as a boyf . I looked past through your bad points & thought about your good points , & I used to think that you are a very good boyf alr . But from Sunday onwards , no more . You disappoint me too thoroughly . I couldn't believe my ears & my eyes . Whenever ppl tell me how their Boyf lie to them & how they hide things from them . I said to myself that luckily my boyf doesn't do that to me , I trusted you . & I pride myself in that , I feel proud of my own boyf . Becos I think that no matter how hot tempered you are & no matter how not understanding you are at times , you still love me very much , & that you wont lie or hide things from me . I thought I knew you best , but I was wrong . I'm so foolish . & what hurts me most , is that you were the one who initiated to go out with her & you were the one who suggested to lie . My very own boyf & bestf , how can you two do this to me . That moment when you begged me to trust you , you are telling another lie . How can I ever trust you again , you tell me . I felt hurt , how come my boyf don't feel upset that somebody is hurting me . Why come you can watch other ppl treat me lithat . You just freaking sat there & see me get hurt by the girls . You just freaking sat there & watch me cry . & then i rmb , you no longer are my boyf anymore . It's kinda weird though , how can someone who claims to love me so much can hurt me so many times . I think ppl with eyes can see that you love me more than I love you . Even when I don't love you as much , I stay faithful & I have never hurt you like that , but you love me so much yet you can lie , hide , betray my trust . You say you learn your mistake MANY MANY times alr , just 5days ago only leh , then now what happen you tell me . In a relationship , without trust , there is nothing . I wont trust you anymore .I wont believe . Once bitten twice shy . I tried my hardest to put my guards down & just believe & trust you time & time again , but you just keep breaking my trust I have for you . It's no longer a second chance when I have given you a hundred . The bottom line is , I'm done trusting . I feel sad for myself . But I blame myself . Blame myself for
encouraging you two to be friends in the first place . Blame myself for letting her stay in the clique , I should have known . Blame myself for being weak . Blame myself for giving you both such privilege to be able to hurt me lithat .
" All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around . I have been giving out chances everytime but all you do is let me down . & it's taking me this long baby but I figured you out . & you are thinking we'll be fine again . But not this time around . . " .
