Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Popping bottles in the ice ~


A fat pig keeps pestering to update my blog . He gives me no rest becos he is fat , haha . This post is going to short though , sorraye ~

Today , actually i slept at 6plus.a.m. in the morning & woke up at 8:50am also in the morning , which means i slept for about 2hours , but im not very tired . Zhengyi came to find me at around 10:30am to study together , OMG right , so hardworking . As usual , he was late . Then after that , settled down at one of the bench & started studying . I started with my maths the moment i sat down , apparently Zhengyi couldn't get use to me being so hardworking , hence he kept trying to disturb me , haha , but ofcos to no avail . Then while doing , i realised that im better in maths than he is . He was jokingly upset that i am smarter than him , hah ! Only afew mins later only , my mummy called me . Wtf ! I panicked . My mummy became all ballistic & she said that she saw me downstairs with a guy . Well , i was really scared can ! I went up immediately to coax her , i was quite sure though , that she was just testing . But i was still pretty terrified . I kept telling Zhengyi that im so scared la , then he kept replying " dont scare la " so the whole conversation is like , " im scared la " , " dont scared leh " . Quite funny . Haha . Then spent about afew hours talking at the staircase & he went back . After he left , i quickly called my mummy again & i denied all the way . Turns out that she was just testing me , as expected . Waa best , she still can laugh somemore leh .
So basically for the rest of the day , i nua at home . Haha , surely will gain weight . Aww man :(

MrTan , happy now ? ♥
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