@Veins Of Scarlet: I will bleed myself dry for you.

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I will bleed myself dry for you.

My life has been pretty awful since the first day of June . I feel unwell , miserable & i feel nauseous everyday . OMG , i can just die . When , just went will it get better ?

Went out with Glenna yesterday , only afew hours , at westmall . We saw the pokemon national challenge thingy at level 1 then we start making fun of those ppl , haha ! True though , pls la , how old alr still play this . Got old woman somemore , what is happening to the world !? HAHA , totally joking . I am 15years old & im still collecting Barbie Doll CDs & watching it once a week . ^^ Ate lunch , then camwhored a little bit . Home at 4plus .

Happy fathers' day , daddy (':