@Veins Of Scarlet: That little faith ,

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, April 15, 2011

That little faith ,

I kind of miss you , not the kind of miss you becos I like you . I miss talking to you everyday like we used to , talk as friends , talking about anything & everything all day , everyday ! Spilling our emotions , talking about songs & our problems , almost everything . I just miss when we used to talk , now its like we dont even know each other & it kind of hurts . Even though we weren't anything except best of the best friend , it still hurts knowing we've grown apart & it went by so quickly . You said we will make new memories , & I sincerely hope so .