Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Letter of love ,


This is for my dear SewYunting , Viona cannot read . Haha !
Hello stupid poo . I bet last night you have been crying again , hugging your smelly mickey right ! Eeeeyer ~ Skaly now the mickey is white , next time when I see it , its yellowish black alr . Haha . Anyway , the Yunting I know is strong , brave & stubborn in a good way . You can overcome the pain when you slit , im sure forgetting a bastard is not quite a difficult job for you . Give yourself time okay , stop telling yourself that you can't do it , stop telling yourself that he did you wrong & stop reminding yourself how good you two once were . I know it is hard becos wherever you go , you will remember all the memories & I know you are trying your best to avoid them . Keep trying okay , you are doing great . Tell yourself tmr will be a better day . Im not saying that it is going to be easy , it is going to be super hard . But with a little faith in yourself & a little time , i believe you can do it . Deep down inside your heart , you know you can too . But becos you believe that you & him will get together again , you blocked out the possibilities of being able to forget him . He might have reasons for avoiding you , be it good or bad , just forget it alr . Why make yourself feel so stressed & hurt ? What is yours will never go away & what is not yours will never come to you . Distract yourself , spend more time with your awesome mummy & on your studies . We are all here for you , (: