To my dearest TanZhengyi ,
Hi stupid babi ! Happy 2nd month ^^ Two months only but we quarrel for so many times , & over the most trivial matter . Tears wasted & blood shed . But everytime after each quarrel , I learnt to appreciate your presence even more & not take you for granted , still trying though , so be a little more patient . I know you are very upset when I said not to celebrate monthly , but it is becos I want both of us to value this relationship more & if we really are meant to last long , on our 6th month , when we celebrate , we will really feel a sense of accomplishment . Its like we finally come this far , automatically we will appreciate this relationship more right ^^ Yesterday when I see your mood change drastically when I mentioned that im going out with my friend instead of you during our 2nd month , I felt guilty & but I still wish to be firm & insist on my way . All I can say is , im really sorry . Im trying very hard alr , & I know you are too ! & for the record , I appreciate & have been appreciating everything you do ^^ . I have problems showing it but rest assure , I really really really do ! I know I have not been loving you as much as you love me , im aware but you understand right ? Give me time kay , im trying my best to do what I can .(: Just so you know , whatever you put in your heart to do for me , it is etched in my heart . Coming all the way to the hospital late at night just to visit me & sending me texts which reminded me to stay strong . Constantly wiping my perspiration away from my forehead when I complain hot & didn't wipe it on my shirt . You gently dab my eyes in order not to make me scratch them when my eyes are red & itchy . You pretended to be retarded & hyper just to make me laugh & smile . You say you will still love me even if im a fat girl. Not getting angry when you saw his name scribbled on my books . Kissing my wound when you saw my slits . Eating extra mint mentos when I asked you to even when you hate minty stuffs . You put down your pride & looked for me even when i asked you to leave . Tolerating all my moodswings & stupid questions like " what if I break with you ? " even when it drives you nuts everytime . Spending time to spam my wall just to make me happy . Bothering to repent time & time again after our quarrels . Cute & funny reactions when you saw me texting guys . Sayang the back of my head when I accidentally hit my head against the wall repeatedly . Hugging me tight & cover my ears with your hands when lightning strikes followed by the thunder . Thank you , really . For everything that you've done . Although we really have different perspective & thinkings , we will work things out right . I will try my best to be a goodgood girlfriend alright .(:
Forever yours , ♥
