@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, January 28, 2011

You do what you love most , & fuck the rest.

Just some random pictures . It has been awhile since i blogged about something happy . Something worth blogging happened today ! Today is WEICHEN'S BIRTHDAY ! DES bought him a birthday cake & we all surprised him , sang happy birthday song for him at the canteen , along with the rest of the ppl thr , quite successful ^^ Hope he enjoyed . Today's counselling was the worst , my attitude suck . I told Miss Vera this " I dont feel like talking to you & telling you what happened today . " OMG right -.-
After school went for tuition , damn tired . Writing chinese characters continously aint fun AT ALL , 3hours okay , no joke .

Another bitter friday , fml .

I tried my hardest to be good enough for everyone . I spent hours scrolling through posts on tumblr just to find the right one to describe my mood . I waited online for that one certain person to sign in , & tried to gather up the nerve to say hello . I listened to the same song dozen of times becos the lyrics meant alot & with the words , a memory played in my mind . & all the 11:11 was wasted on someone who will never care .