Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, October 15, 2010

I give up .




















Sup ppl . Today is the last day of Exams ! (Y). Next week will know results alr , aww man . So enjoy while you can during the weekend . I'll start tuition next month , so fast right ?? Zzzs . Just now , went to watch " The Child's Eye ". The guy characters all so handsome one , ^^. WE WATCH 3D one somemore oh ~~. The ghost come out like at their own timing one , laughs . I like the plot , but now im more afraid of Dogs -.-. & it seems like pregnant ladies ALWAYS encounter such scary stuffs , i dontw have baby alr :O . After that supposed to meet Michelle , but she went off with her boyf before we even reach there , hmm . Next time then .


Yupp , you are correct , im so lousy . So SO SO lousy . Tsktsk , i no longer feel hurt anym , your words totally numbed me . When's the last time you praise me ? Why do you keep comparing nowadays ? How come no matter how hard i try , you dont see the effort ? How come no matter what she do is funny & acceptable , but whatever i do is acting & unneccesary ?. I try to be the daughter you want , i try so hard . I wish i cant tell you my problems too , but whenever i tried to tell you something , you'll start scolding me & then accuse me . Can you stop using my past mistake to bring me down ? Everytime i try to change , you'll remind me of the past & then make me feel bad . Why ?. I have attitude problems ? REALLY ?. Wow , then jiejie dont have lah hor ? -.-


ARGH ! You make me so angry ! _|_ man ! _|_ !. Haven you notice , all the conflicts always start becos of you ! I know how to control my temper & emotions , but do you ? I can cheer myself up so that you wont feel bad , but can you ? You always think that becos you're the one liking , then only you will feel sad , only you will feel disappointed , only you can feel angry . BUT GUESS WHAT , I HAVE FEELINGS TOO ! & becos of your self-centered thinking , i have to suffer twice as much . You know that? YEAH YOU DONT ! Argh , wat languae must i speak in to make you understand ? You say you'll change , but you've become worst . Am i to blame ? Am i givin in to you too much ? You'll never appreciate what i try to do for you , standing in your shoes , etc . Can you use your heart to feel ornot ? I give you attitude ? MY attiude worse than yours ? Can i stop giving you attitude ? WTH lah hor . Yeahyeah , im in the wrong . I HAVE TO REFLECT . Fine . So pls dont text me , im too ashamed .
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