@Veins Of Scarlet: The Cirque ~

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

The Cirque ~

SUP PEPOS !

Today is really fun ttm . Early in the morning , stuck inside the toilet becos i cant tie my hair neatly , hair like SiaoZharBo lithat . After that took Taxi to school , (Y) . Saw Lynn & then went to the Dance Studio . Super cool lah the make ups ! Idk how to use , is Glenna & Lynn help me make up one , hence im the first to be ready .

After what seemed like eternity , its finally our turn . OMG , we at the back stage shivering lah . whenever im nervous about something , i'll tend to have stomach ache , wth lah . After the 2E4 started dancing , my heart like going to pop out alr lithat lah . When its our turn , i wasn't as nervous sial ! HAHAHAH , epic . I really think we did great lah ! AWESOME or what . MGL took a photo of us after that . As DES & I peeped at the MC's script , we knew that MrGan was getting the most approachable award , so The Cirque , decided to stand up & clap for him with Aishah & bredan & victor . :)

After the celebration , sat at the Canteen waiting for YunTing . Saw WeiJie , that stinky henpeck guy . :) Saw alot of ppl toooooo ~ (Y) . Then YunTing went to eat with Amanda , DES & Glenna came over to my house . SHIOK . Watched 3shows . 2 scary 1 stupid . HAHAHAHA , Glenna is so obsessed with that show lah , funny . Then we started camwhoring using my webcam , super funny lah ! :)