Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

I was braver when i was a kid ,







Wooo ! No more chinese tuition alr ! YES YES ! Who can feel my happiness man . No need to skip lunch , no need to take bus back && fro unwillingly && no more chinese comprehensions (Y). Supposedly , my friends are coming over to my house , but due to some sudden appointment , its postponed to tmr . So today , i will roughly bored to death like any other day . This saturday im going for an eye check up . Thr's something wrong with my right eye , dk is lazy eye or screen eye . Best if they change another eye for me , keke . I have been watching a show call " Human Trafficking " , awesome show . It can be found at Youtube , just type :" Human Trafficking movie part 1 " Its about girls && ladies mainly from Philippine or America being sold or kidnapped , then the guy boss will collect everybody , then use them to make money , sad case . We girls should be lucky that we actually have rights && positions in this generation , in this country . Parents in Philippine can just sell away their daughters for some filthy money , && worst still , to someone they dk . Now , the police are trying to release them group by group . I think it is based on true story .


It is so sad you know .. To know that the one you cherish && trust the most turns out to be the one who is cheating on you the most .