@Veins Of Scarlet: I made it okay .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, May 31, 2010

I made it okay .

Waa ! It has been so long since i posted . Shall start with yesterday !

Yesterday was the happiest Sunday , after that day.. Anyw , my family && I didn't go to church , all slept till noon then nua at home . Evening , we went East Coast to have out dinner && cycled after fetching UncleDaniel . After that , my sist && I cycled the double bike , I in front she behind becos im more familiarized . We didn't start off well , we were mocked by some redundant ppl becos i couldn't balance the bike well . MY sist kept encouraging me . Siao , for the first time man . I got a lot of cuts && bruises alr ah :( It has been so long since i had FamilyDay . Damn , do i miss it .

Today super boring . * snore * But i very goodgirl , i paid attention in class oh . I only sleep for 20mins during English but still i got finish my work in time . After school , went home straight . Then danced like siaozharbo with Glenna at my house , hohohohoho :)

Im sorry if i make you feel so troubled . It's my fault that you cant sleep at night . It's my fault that you are so emotional now . I know you tried your best to give in to me whenever im just being stubborn . I know you did alot of sweet things to make me happy && to prove your love . I know you attempted to approach me but all i did was ignore .I know your love for me is true . I know you took alot of courage to confess your love for me && say ILoveYou through the phone . I appreciate all the little things you do . All i want to say is , ThankYou (: