@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, March 5, 2011

OMG . Yesterday night met with a car accident . A stupid bus hit my car at around boonlay area , shouldn't have gone to JurongPoint man . Hate JurongPoint lika crazy . Anyway , my older sis still at the hospital, tmr then can go home, her forehead got two deep scars , the backseat is stained with her splattered blood , she probably have to go for surgery . My younger sis fractured her arm but alr back home . As for me, im facing the worst headache of my life , bruises on my legs & my left eye swollen becos i first hit my left eye when the collision happen & sprained my neck . Compared to my siblings , im alr very lucky . My mummy only has bruises . Couldn't sleep well at all . & the freaking ambulance took so long to come , not efficient at all . The nurses say that yesterday night dk why got alot of accident, hence . The police officers say that this is quite a big case becos the ppl in the bus are like police , & one of the casualties lost his gun till now still unable to find , quite dangerous . All of us were sent to NUH , i was only allowed to leave at 1:30am , cold like crazy . Zhengyi & his friendscame to the hospital , but kena chased away by my mummy . Zhengyi still can say my mummy pretty , best (Y) .

After this accident , i truly know who are the ones who really care about me & will always be there for me .
Special thanks to Zhengyi , Dhiri & Desiree . Not forgetting Glenna & Juinfai .