@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Hey sexayeee ^^
YESTERDAY , after school slacked at the basketball court with my beautifuls & boyfriend . Then we saw alot of handsome guys playing basketball , hoho ! After that played playground for maybe 5mins , DES damn cute can then later wait for bus with her . Then boyfriend bring me home ^^ Very funny oh , we saw a malay couple kissing so vigorously ! The girl damn aggressive & the guy like so skinny & helpless . Can see them French kissing sial , eeee ! Then Zhengyi became so agitated then all his vulgarity come out xD.

TODAY , was a damn boring & tiring day . Came to school early for Zhengyi then he ended up late :( After school had Chinese remedial , ah -.- Eyes became bloodshot ! Siao ! Hope it gets better soon ^^

The feeling of insanity & time passes so slowly when im not with you . How you dominate my thoughts & I can almost feel you with me . How I can't help but smile when i know you're thinking about me . How when things aren't going well it drives me insane & I can't seem to think straight . I miss you so much & I feel that dull emptiness in my chest .