Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, January 1, 2011



The truth is , you dont need us anymore . You only come to us when you need our help . Lets recap back a little , whenever you & your boyfriend's anniversary is coming up , you will try to save up your money & plan what to buy 1month before . But did you ever even wreck your brain before to think of what to buy for us , for our birthday ? Lets talk about des's birthday present , YOU TOTALLY FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT , aye ? & Glenna's birthday , you claimed that you have no money , hence you couldn't join us , you could have saved up , dont you think so ? & we deeply appreciated the effort that you came all the way to the interchange just to pass us the money . I thanked you thrice . What else should i do to make you feel appreciated ? Teach me will you ? & through the holiday , did you bother to text us ? If we were so important to you , you should have contacted us . I did . I tried to console you when you quarrelled with your boyfriend , twice . I still cared about you even when we are drifting . & rmb the keychain i did for you ? I put in my heart to think of what to buy for you & saved money for it . It might not be expensive or a big thing to brag about , but the effort & the time i took to save the money , when i dont even have enough money for myself alr , does that mean nothing to you ? If you really treasured it , you would have taken extra care of it . & when you lost it , you have no sense of guilt & shit . You can still tell me , " oh , 不见了,jinkang 丢我的电话让后就不懂跑去哪里了 ".
Yes yes , we are drifting . & yes , we stopped treating you lika princess & giving in to you always . Becos we are all very tired . We rather be happy than putting in our effort to please somebody who dont seem to appreciate . Who thinks that we , as your friend , are obliged to . & after all that who do for you , we are still nothing compare to your girlfriends outside . You see the sore in our heart ? Call you contribute to your close friend's birthday is call making use of you ah ? OMG -.- seriously ? So you seriously think you have no faults ? So you still seriously think we dont appreciate you or neglect you ? Think again .

Oh , && we are not quarrelling hor . Just exchanging point of view (:
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