Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Imperfection .




The movie " Black Swan " is awesome ! A thrilling and at times terrifying journey through the psyche of a young ballerina whose starring role as the duplicitous swan queen turns out to be a part for which she becomes frighteningly perfect . The show centers on a veteran ballerina who finds herself locked in a competitive situation with a rival dancer , with the stakes and twists increasing as the dancers approach a big performance . But it's unclear whether the rival is a supernatural apparition or if the protagonist is simply having delusions . That main character can get the next Oscar award alr . Really nice , & if you are into dacing , you will find it twice as nice ! Its really nice . When i watched finish the show , i stunned & stared at the black screen for afew minutes to let my feelings flow , LOL . Lika drame only right ? But its true , really a nice show . I wanna be like that girl man . SKINNY & graceful (Y).

Anyw , today is the first day of school . Im lika lonely girl sitting at a corner , surrounded with ppl idk , :( . Recess is the best only & MT , got Glenna & co . A-Mathe so hard la , idk is i too stupid to understand what the teacher is teaching or the teacher's fault , AH !. Then after got combine Physics , finally enjoyed myself , with Kunthavi ! She's a really good entertainer , she laughed at all my jokes , even when it is not funny . How cute is she ? VERY . Then had lesson inside the com lab , shiok only ~ .

5more days .