@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Worst Christmas EVER .

Yes , that picture totally illustrates what i did during Christmas , when everybody is busying celebrating & bonding with their family members . Quarrelled with a egoist asshole . Tsktsk , whatever , not the first time alr , kinda used to it . There hadn't been once when im facing the worst situation , we are not quarrelling . Yeah right , this is how you are here for me . I understand now .

Parents quarrelling like mad again , objects flying around , screamings filled the air & the best thing is , my grandfather blamed me for it . My life is so wonderful , who else wanna be me ? (:
Everything is happening again . Fuck it . How many times must i be forced to go through everything again . Fairytales are so true . " Steps " are always so hypocrite & evil .

Relationship quarrel are just a waste of time . Really cannot stand young couples quarrelling over minor stuffs . What does it take to tell them that " Hello , wake up lah , stop quarrelling over stupid things . " . Zzzzs , cant they just appreciate alr . Break , patch break patch , game is it ? LOL . Lika nothing to do only . Dont they know that in life , there are more important tings to do ? If so xinku ah , dont get into a relationship so soon lah . Like despos only .