Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Hypocrites are so disgusting .



One day when i start to regret , i will rmb how you insult me & the middle fingers you pointed . I know im not a good girl , but i tried to be , damn hard , hence i am . Im not trying to be offending or rude , i just wanna be strong for myself just for once . I dontw to look pathetic & sad infront of you anymore , becos in your eyes , im just a pathetic & ugly girl with no friends , now i know . I must say though , you really are the best at giving up . Pointing middle fingers & just look at the countless " fucks " you scolded me , you deserve a standing ovation . Nobody in my entire life has insulted me till this extend before , you are the first . Well , you must be so very proud aye ? You cleaned up good , you pushed all your pain to me . You are just the bastard everybody warned me about . I hope for your sake , that you will see your mistake . But dont apologise to me though or send me those long texts , becos those won't heal the scars . By the time when you see this post , its alr too late . You want to end all this in sucha ugly way , fine . Take care . Bye .

From the moment when you typed that , you convinced & assured me that you no longer deserved to be treated like how you are being treated now . Dont bother changing , becos just like you said , a leopard never changes it's spot .