@Veins Of Scarlet: I thank God that im Melissa .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, November 12, 2010

I thank God that im Melissa .

Tmr going out Glenna Yaw ! (:

I thank God that im normal .
I thank God that i can look presentable without makeup .
I thank God that i dont have any uncurable diseases .
I thank God that i have a mouth to speak , ear to hear & eyes to see .
I thank God that i have a strong & stubborn mother .
I thank God that i have two crazy sisters .
I thank God that i have my best 3bitches with me .
I thank God for giving me courage to move on from my childhood nightmare .
I blame God for giving me sucha incomplete family .

No matter how many times we go through that .
No matter how many times i try explaining .
No matter how many times i cry ,
you still have no idea .

CAN YOU FUCKING STOP ASKING TO GO OUT JUST FOR THE SAKE OF GOING OUT ?! I DONTW MEANS I DONTW , ITS NOT ABOUT WHO IM OUT GOING OFF WITH . I JUSY DONTW TO GO OUT . STOP FORCING ME TO GO OUT . NO NEED TO PRETEND ONE FAMILY MAN FOR US TO SEE , WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU ARE NOT . YOU ARE SO HYPOCRITE . IMMA KID LEH MOTHERFUCKER , CAN YOU STOP GIVING ME MORE STRESS & THEN EXPECT ME TO HANDLE IT ORNOT ?! YOU CAN TREAT YOUR OWN DAUGHTER THIS WAY . BUT IM FUCKING NOT YOUR DAUGHTER .