@Veins Of Scarlet: Bleeding love

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, July 19, 2010

Bleeding love

MR BOMBASTIC ~ :) LOL , I love that song man , (Y) . Super entertaining one . Hmm , i think i should think of another URL soon . Apparently , my blog is attracting some unwelcome stalker , zzzs . Anyw , today is a good day :) Science is somehow boring today . P.E. was fun ! Volleyball rocks , awww .. I miss volleyball :( During Music lesson , Mdm Toh screened " Harry Potter " , can you believe it , i've never seen it before , LOL ? SO , anyw .. SCHOOL IS BORING ! Why . Waa , recently i got alot of nickname man . Cat , ballball , MelMel , Miaow . WAA !

I FEEL LIKE SAYING THIS IN YOUR FACE MAN ,
" CAN YOU FUCKING STOP ACTING CUTE ? "
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You said you love me ,
i said it too ,
You said you were confused ,
What should i do .

That clear white lie ,
I should have seen you through .
Unwillingly , i said goodbye ,
torn , i wish i could sue .

The torments you dedicated ,
resembles much like hell .
Naive & tormented ,
i said " oh well " .

Clueless on what i should do next ,
your words & memories make me suffocate .
Doubtful of what you say that day ,
my stupidity led the way .

Thinking & reminiscing that 3 words you said ,
i wish i could figure you out .
I struggled & tried so hard ,
you pushed me away & back out .

Tired of crying ,
sick of trying .
We should never have started ,
" Fine " I uttered .