@Veins Of Scarlet: I.Love.My.Daddy.

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, April 16, 2011

I.Love.My.Daddy.

Dear daddy ,
I miss you . & I wish mummy hadn't argued with you , but sometimes it really was your fault , but she didn’t mean the things she said when she was angry , although I cannot really rmb what did both of you argued about . & mummy still can’t stop thinking about you & wishing you were here with us , once in a while . If I had known that you were going to leave , I would have laid longer on your laps . I would have stared at you every night so that I wouldn't forget what you look like . I would have kissed you on your cheeks to let you rmb how sweet I am . I would have hugged you tighter to let you rmb that I love you so much . I wouldn't have struggled when you put your chin against my cheeks though your rough beard made it painful . I would have tried my best to hold you back when you were going to get a drink . I would have cried as loud as i could so that my pleads & cries will stay in your head , at least it could be something for you to rmb about me . I failed as a daughter as I alr forgotten how you look . What I miss the most is your laughter that could once brighten my day . & what I regret the most is letting you walk out of the door on that very day , believing that you will come back .

Forever yours .