@Veins Of Scarlet: Boundless agony .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Boundless agony .

OMG ! I dreamt of the scariest thing in the world ! Okay , i dreamt that my sisters & I went for a church camp , then it is the last day alr . Its really damn weird leh , we were grouped by our classes -.- Like double science one group , triple science one group , then the combine one group . Then when its the combine science group's turn to bathe , we lined up in a group of 5 , then when is my line to go , 3 of the ppl in my line , including my older sister , went ahead first , there was this alley infront of the toilet , they just assumed that the alley was the toilet , so they just went in . Then suddenly i saw a cage with alot of dead body inside at the entrance of the alley , I quickly pulled my younger sister away incase the ppl see us then we heard alot of gunshots . OMG la . You know like the world war 2 , the soldiers will dig a hole then the victims will stand in front of the hole then when the soldiers shoot them , they will fall directly into the hole , EXACTLY THE SAME IN MY DREAM SIAL . Too much history -.- Then after that my sister & I tried to blend in with the double science students . Then I saw one playground ! We run towards the playground & played :D . Then we saw a gate beyond a field & escaped !