@Veins Of Scarlet: I thought you were different .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, March 28, 2011

I thought you were different .

I know in this picture , there are too much chiobu-s , but for the time being , pls focus on ME . ( Self-praise is universal disgrace ). Becos becos while i was looking back at all my past photos , this picture caught my eyes ! Last time my hair so short hor ! OMG ! Look ay my stomach , so skinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ! >< SO HAPPY LEH . Somemore Desiree still can say im skinnier now , OMG . H.A.P.P.Y. L.I.K.E S.I.A.O .

You fall in love , it's intoxicating , & for a little while you feel you've actually become one with the other person . Merged souls , & so on . You think you'll never be lonely again . Only it doesn't last & soon you realise you can only get so close . & you end up brutally disappointed , more than ever . Becos the illusion - the hope you'd held on to all those years , has been shattered .