Did i blog about my NewYear ? Did i mention that it sucked ? Did i tell you about my greatest disappointment ? Did i tell you how many tears i shed ? Did i tell you how stupid am I ? Did i tell you how tired I am now ? Did I tell you how i manage to still display a smile on my face ? Did i talk about how regretful I am ? Did I tell you that im so fucking depressed & yet no fucking soul do anything about it ? Oh ! Did i tell you that i figured out that no matter where you put the word "fucking" in your sentence , your sentence still makes sense ? No right ? (:
Its like usually ppl only notice how sad a person is when that person is cheerful all the time , ppl only see the obvious . Now , I realised that when a person who is always sad , complains about how sad he or she is , nobody really bother anym . Nobody really pays attention anymore , becos they are sick & tired of listening to that person's whinning & complaints , & most importantly , they are sick of comforting you , becos all they can say is " Cheer Up " . Some think that once they say the two words outta their mouth , they alr tried their best to comfort you , they wont do any follow ups . Worst to worst , when they failed to stand in your shoes & think for you , they assume & insist on their thinkings , & THEY JUDGE YOU . THEY THINK YOU ARE JUST SEEKING ATTENTION . Hence , I decided not to open up to anybody anym . Once bitten , twice shy . Amazingly , those who hurt me so thoroughly are those who are so close to me .
Lesson learnt: Never trust .
Hi .
Im really feeling so sick right now . Fuck fuck fuck fuck . I really need you :'(
