@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

What does it take to be happy ?

Today is the 2nd day of school , hmm , the same ! No idea what Amathe is about , totally regret taking it man . English & History was not bad at all . Almost slept in class during Amathe , omg -.-

Had volleyball today ,
- Finally managed to serve the ball over . 8times (Y).
- Coach spike the ball , accidentally hit my face . The impact almost made me fall .
- Sprained my ankle a little .
- Spine starting to ache again .
- Didn't get to play formation .
- The end .

Friday got training at 3pm , outdoor . Saturday got training in the morning , 8am to 12:30pm , for the sec 1 orientation thingy . How to celebrate my birthday leh ?

I think the worst type of crying is when my lips start to shake & tears build up quickly & fall fast . Im bent over or crouched trying to suck it in & not make any noise but it hurts too much to hold it in so i let out a yelp & a cry , then comes the loss of breath which sucks becos i think that i sound dumb for not breathing too . Its just a mess .