@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, January 7, 2011

I will bleed myself dry for you .

Hi suckers . Im so tired , of everything .
Just finished volleyball .
- Finally got the chance to play formation ! *happiest face*
- Managed to serve the ball over twice while playing & scored points ! *elated face*
- Competition is next friday ! *nervous face*
- Played under the rain . *ah-choooooo*
- Did alot of pumpings . *faint*
- COACH SAYS IM OLD .... *sad face*

Tmr going school for training again , CCA awareness day for sec 1s , must report at 7:30am sial ! GOSH . 4-5hours of training , EXERCISE ----> Lose weight . (Y).
Birthday is in two days & yet im feeling kinda sad .

Might be meeting cousins tonight . Gonna get high ~ Skaly tmr cannot wake up only .