@Veins Of Scarlet: My head says yes but my heart says no.

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

My head says yes but my heart says no.

Hi , now im currently having Ribena , i feel like the luckiest girl in the whole wide world . Imma proud of myself , i didn't eat anything yesterday , woo (Y).
Anyway , today went to do c.i.p with Glenna , supposedly with Dhiri too , but he had something on , so .. Very tired today , do alot of things . Pasting , cutting , measuring , typing & the glueing . Whole body aching , especially my spine & i think i sprained my wrist while carrying the kids , LOL . Jordan is back from Malaysia & played with my adorable twins too . After that went to eat ice cream with Glenna . Love her lika crazy . <3