Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Becos when im with him i am thinking of you .


Adrain & I



Glenna's






Jordan ! :)










Aaron ^^








Sup monsters .

Today's c.i.p was the best . More of " interacting " with the kids than doing work . Glenna found her favourite , dk what name but she claims that the kid looks like T , hence that cute boy became her favourite . As for my favourite , they are the cutest (Y) , twins somemore hor ~ Aaron & Adrain , best name ever ~ . You can only tell the difference by their birth mark , hairstyle & what they wear . One of them kissed my hand , one of them kept holding on to my hand . AWW ! My second favourite is Jordan , super chubby one hor , & damn cute . All of them want sit on my lap , my legs lika pain only . They dontcare one leh , just press my leg down , bua their hands across my stomach , put their heads on my thighs , one even worst , he tried to put his hand between my legs . They really v.cute , they always talk in a language which i dont understand or they will talk to themselves , lika cute only . Left around 4:30 reach home at 5plus . DEAD TIRED , zzzs .


Becos im afraid that once i leave his side , we will never be so close again . Yeah , just like what happened before . It felt like he was beside me . It felt like he is here with me , once again . It was like he is smiling at me again . It was like i was looking into his eyes . That moment of happiness was what i was yearning for .