Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Back at you .

Answer to your post:

I over react & assume too much ?! Yes , you need to be alone & i respect the hell out of that . & the definition of alone is: separate, apart, or isolated from others . BUT it seems like i was the only one you want to be seperated from . You can joke around with them lika nobody's business but leave me hanging there like some stupid fool , wrecking my brains , thinking what the fuck is wrong with you . How many times have we been throught this ?! YOU TELL ME . How many times must i go through this with you ?! How many times have i explained to you alr ?! How many times have you given me your silent treatment ? I trusted you to be more sensible & think for me TOO . You say you'll change , & i have faith in you . I thought among all , you'll be the one who will always stand by me , despite all the little conflicts , i pin high hopes on you . Oh , so those weren't you shoes ? Lets just say , i judged you wrongly , your shoes are way too different from what i expected to be , & you expected too much , hence the little things i do didn't help . If you appreciate , we wont even be quarrelling about this now , pls . Yeah lah yeah lah , you think by the definition of being here for me is knowing my problems ?! Then you're hell wrong . If you really think being here for me is too fifficult , then PLS DONT . You can start by being sensible , THAT will help me a great deal . THATS BECOS YOU ARE THE BAD GUY ! IF NOT ME AH ? Everything was so okay , then suddenly you , " I just need to be alone . " Then follow by the cold shoulder & blablabla . Wtf did i do ? YOU TELL ME & I WILL NOT HESITATE TO APOLOGISE . Instead of telling me whats wrong , YOU CHOSE TO LEAVE ME HANGING THERE , do you know how helpless i was ? Do you bother ?! Idk how you might be feeling , hmm , i wonder why .. Maybe its becos YOU NEVER EVER LEMME KNOW . THATS BECOS YOU'RE IN THE WRONG , hello , wake up ! I never give you a chance to prove yourself ? Really ? Does your silent treatment means proving yourself ? Okayokay , just tell me , what should i do then is consider giving you a chance to prove yourself ? You tell me .

Sometimes i really wish i was in the wrong . Becos i will reflect & repent real quick . Apologise , & promise never to do it again . & the most important thing is , i mean what i say . Lastly , get this over with .
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