@Veins Of Scarlet: I cant take this anym .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, October 25, 2010

I cant take this anym .

* Photos are taken with swollen eyes , so a little dont look like me .
Yesterday went Church , the service was super entertaining lah okay ! I laugh like shit only . Then after that went to watch " You Again ". Super nice show , rate it 4/5 . Then at night for to eat Sizzler , waa best !.

I can act as though nothing happened , i can act as though im fine with it but dont fucking take me for granted . Listen up bitch , i have my own limit ! Bitch , please have some originality pls . You're so fake , you seriously disgust me . I give you face , you jolly well appreciate it . Or else .

You think i care about you ?
You think i will even bother about your feelings ?
You think i will think of apologising to you first ?
You think i cannot live without you ?
You think i need you in my life ?
You think i will shed a tear for you ?
You think i will miss you ?
You think i will be moodless becos of you ?
Well , you're right .