@Veins Of Scarlet

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

If you dk what really happened , dont jump into the conclusion , If you dk how i feel , dont pretend you do . If you've no idea what i've been through , dont complain . If you think that im happy , take a lift to level 100 , & jump down . Im changing for you , but you dont see . Im trying so hard , yet nobody feels it . No matter how i hard i try , yah , its just not enough . I have to care about your feelings , i cant throw my temper on you . THEN WHO THE HELL WILL CARE MINE ? It is okay for you to feel sad , i cannot , becos so many ppl like me right ? IM SO FUCKING BLESSED mah , so oh no , i should be contented . Its all my fault ! All my fault ! Im to blame !

You're right , you shouldn't have wasted so much time on me .
Im so sorry to have tied you down . Im so sorry to make you cry . Im so sorry man .

I tried , for you . I thought you will feel it . End up leh ? Tsk ..