@Veins Of Scarlet: Why the cruelty ?

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Friday, August 6, 2010

Why the cruelty ?

ARGH ! So lazy to reply tags but its so rude to reply after a week or so , ( sorry if i offend ppl who reply tags much later ). So , i've decided to change back my reply tags system , i'll just reply them in the tagboard itself :)

Anyw , today is such a bore in school ! Siaoo , National Day Celebration is always to boring . Why cant we just sing afew songs & get over it . Zzzs . After school , i recieved the best present from Dhiri ! Woooooo , its our so called " 1st year anniversary " , awesome or what right . Took some peeks in the bus , & i was making a big deal out of it . Like dancing with it , smelling the rose , staring at the chocolate , reading the card & hesitating if i should eat the chocolate . Hmm , but i soon gotten over it & i ate ALL of them . Actually no lah , i shared my happiness with my dance partners & family , BUT i ate the most , its for me anyw , hohohoho (:
I saw Xavier today at Shelter . Crazy ass ley him , he slim down alr . NOT FAIR :(

Then , DES , Glenna & Jessica went over to my house to practise . Everyb is feeling the stress , as audition is next week ! I really hate the part whr we have to compile the music together man ! ARGH ! So damn hard . & the moves , i keep forgetting , sorry >< . I really dontw why , im getting blue blacks & mosquito bites so often nowadays , im too SWEET , awww ~