Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, July 24, 2010

Slash the pain .

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(1007words) I promise i didn't copy & paste .

Waa , fuck . I needa vent my anger on something . At least i vent my anger on something which wont end up getting hurt , you know . One gets so jealous easily , one gets so moody suddenly . WTF . Me ley ? Waalau . Haven i been understanding enough . You think it feels good in my position ? My every word must be spoken so carefully , so that nobody gets hurt . & when i do make mistake , i get punished for it . Then what about you guys ? When angry , you all can just speak up your mind & give me lecture , dont care about my feeling , give me one of your attitude & the excuse is becos you all moodswing lah , or jealous . You dont see me giving you all this kind of pressure right ? Zzzs . Im trying so hard alr , dont make it any more dificult for me can . Every word you say is so offending & yet you dont realise it .

I know you feeling v.miserable sometimes . I understand why one gets so jealous & moody so easily . But why put the anger on me ? Is it becos im the one causing the misery , so you think that i should & deserve this kind of treatment ? Hell no . I have feelings & i will feel hurt too . Just becos my eyes dont tear , doesn't mean i dont cry . Just becos i come off strong , doesn't mean there's nothing wrong .
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