@Veins Of Scarlet: Prove to me

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Prove to me

Finally can wake up late alr . Went mac in the morning with Amanda , DES & YT . I watch them eat , Amanda treat me one baby sized Orange juice , hohoho . But ended up only drinking 2sips , also dk why i keep feeling nauseous even when thr's no input at all , -.- . Anyw , lessons were super boring . I feel like asking the teachers , " Why is your lesson so boring ? " .. During English lesson , some 2E1 boys accidently kicked their ball into my class , Miss Purana also sibeh cute one lah hor , hide the ball at her leg thr . Totally epic man .

After recess , had concert ! WAA ! Awesome , we planned to give a standing ovation to Dhiri & his band when they are starting . Nervous much ? Everybody so tense up , then when its time to stand , some still blur blur sit thr , " huh , now ah ? " Zzzs . Funny or what .