@Veins Of Scarlet: I need a break , literally .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Monday, July 5, 2010

I need a break , literally .

BOO ! Today is Youth Day hence a school holiday ~ Yesterday night slept with aircon on , sibeh shuang can ! This morning dontw wake up , keke . Anyw , today went over to YT's house in the morning to finish up the project . I looked super unglam in that video lah , waalu . Face like kena bang by lorry lithat , LOL . After that went WM to watch movie , Eclipse . It was awesome , better than NewMoon but Twilight is still the best . Actually i dont think Bella is flirtatious , i somehow understand what she's going through .
Anyw , the queue was freaking long lah can . Really make me want to forget about the movie & bus home . But luckily got ppl help us queue , then the girls went to talk neoprint to kill time .

So tired , i dont think i enjoyed myself today .

You know , i think i should continue with my plan . I thought i would regret , but somehow i think i can live with it . Slowly , you'll see the difference in me . As i alr said , dont blame me .