Imperfection completes me .

I'm fat and ugly. I'm made of flaws. I yearn to be happy.

My name is Melissa Wong; the broken one .

My life is covered with unhealed bruises & scars . God is my first priority & only God can judge me , so who the hell are you ? Im fat & ugly . Im made of flaws . I yearn to be happy . Im always tired , but it is the kind of tired that even sleeping cant fix . Im going through constant excruciating pain . Pain so bad I'd take take death with a smile just to get away from it . & you'll never know what its like to beg God everyday to just take all the agony away with crippled anger & tears that still drip sore . I love songs which can relate to my feelings . I desire no wealth or health , i just want to be happy . I dont like liars , betrayers nor kpos , I DETEST COPYCATS . I can cry for 4hours straight or laugh for the rest of my life , you decide . It takes years to build up trust with me but seconds to destroy it . Im very soft hearted , but dont take me for granted . Im not helpless . Maybe discouraged & faltering , but not helpless . I love to pray , as GOD listens to me . People said i changed so much . Well , here is the truth . I grew up . I stopped letting ppl push me around all the time , I learnt that i cant always be happy . I , accepted reality .

For all sad words of tongue & pen , the saddest are this " It might have been " .

Saturday, July 31, 2010

GOD made it possible .















HELLO ! Yesterday was YT's birdday . Glenna was much more excited than YT lah , laughs . She from Monday count down until Friday . She everyday will suddenly become hyper , then will talk non stop ah . Imagine what kind of damage her blabers will cause to my ears , becos im sitting right beside her . Immediately after school , we rushed home to bathe , DES got oral , so she only can change clothes in school . Her hair can still smell so nice , wtf . After that , bused to BB interc with YT to meet the two crazies . WOO , i saw someb in the bus okay ! Siao , i was shivering like mad lah , too nervous alr . But apparently , he didn't see me . As usual .. First thing when we reach thr , Glenna started her hyper nonsense again , HAHAHA .

In the MRT , super funny . YT kept comparing DES's ***** with hers . Through out the journey , we were talking about that , -.- Then we also smelled each other hair like nobody business , he ppl in the MRT sure think that we are crazy one .

FINALLY ! IT IS SOEOULGARDEN TIME ! Eat like some hungry ghost lithat . & you know what , they are the first batch of ppl who successfully persuaded me to eat the meat thr , * clapclap . YT & DES meat queen ah , take so many chicken , hahahaha . Now then i realize something , YT & DES are v.suitable to be parents . They help Glenna & I cook almost everything . You should see how serious they are man .

After eating , went WM to buy anklet . WAA ! Super nice man ! Got ribbon one . After that Glenna went home . Then The rest of us took neoprint . LOL , & so coincidentally , say ZhengYi eating at FKC .

& LASTLY , MANY THANKS TO AMANDA FOR MAKING THIS POSSIBLE :)



( The rest all scoldings alr , can exit alr )

To: [ insert name ]
So flirtatious , omg . Go lah . Go flirt with everyb lah ! Stupid cheapo . Whats your problem man ? Must have all the guys to yourself is it ? Shameless shit only lah hor .. Despo bitch . No wonder i hate you so much , i thought thr was something wrong with me . Now i know why alr , you're too much of a backstabber to have me to like you .

To: [ insert name ]
& you ! Stupid one . Go embrace all the girls you want kay , its fine with me . Call anyb you want kay , you so handsome mah . Do whatever you want , dont tell me .

How come when one is good to me , the other is not ? How come when im not angry with one , im angry with the other one ? How come when one is sensible , the other one is not ? How come when one makes me happy , the other one will not ? How come when one is not moody , the other one is ? Why is thr no situation whrby both of you are equally balanced ? Why must i always be troubled by all this . Problems come one after another , so worn out .. Whats wrong with me man ! ARGH ! Why am i so upset . It felt like my heart is choking you know , something is stuck thr & i cant seem so remove it . The feeling resembles much like hell . Kill me , dont torture me . Gun me down , dont burn me alive .